Bored out of my mind at work. Things have been alright, just working a lot and hanging out the apt. Trying to get a few things cleared up, turning many stresses in my life into as few as possible :-). And my comp at home has been completely shitty, so I haven't been online as regulary. Cell phone is off for now, so call the house. 921-3556. Nothing else to say, so i leave you with some lyrics of the great 50 Cent.

[Lloyd Banks]
Man we gotta go get something to eat man
I'm hungry as a motherfucker

[50 Cent]
Ay yo man, damn what's taking homie so long son?

[Lloyd Banks]
50, calm down, here he come

[9 Shots]

[Banks and 50]
Ahh, ohh, what the fuck!?

[50 Cent]
Ahh! son, pull up! pull up!

[50 Cent]
Many men, wish death upon me
Blood in my eye dawg and I can't see
I'm trying to be what I'm destined to be
And niggas trying to take my life away
I put a hole in a nigga for fucking with me
My back on the wall, now you gon' see
Better watch how you talk, when you talk about me
'Cause I'll come and take your life away

Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me

Now these pussy niggas putting money on my head
Go on and get your refund motherfucker, I ain't dead
I'm the diamond in the dirt, that ain't been found
I'm the underground king and I ain't been crowned
When I rhyme, something special happen every time
I'm the greatest, something like Ali in his prime
I walk the block with the bundles
I've been knocked on the humble
Swing the ox when I rumble
Show your ass what my gun do
Got a temper nigga, go'head, lose your head
Turn your back on me, get clapped and lose your legs
I walk around gun on my waist, chip on my shoulder
Till I bust a clip in your face, pussy, this beef ain't over

Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul
Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me

Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred
This if for my niggas on the block, twisting trees and cigars
For the niggas on lock, doing life behind bars
I don't see only god can judge me, 'cause I see things clear
Quick these crackers will give my black ass a hundred years
I'm like Paulie in Goodfellas, you can call me the Don
Like Malcolm by any means, with my gun in my palm
Slim switched sides on me, let niggas ride on me
I thought we was cool, why you want me to die homie?

Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul
Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me

Every night I talk to god, but he don't say nothing back
I know he protecting me, but I still stay with my gat
In my nightmares, niggas keep pulling techs on me
Psych says some bitch dumb, put a hex on me
The feds didn't know much, when Pac got shot
I got a kite from the pens that told me, Tuck got knocked
I ain't gonna spell it out for you motherfuckers all the time
Are you illiterate nigga? You can't read between the lines
In the bible it says, what goes around, comes around
Almost shot me, three weeks later he got shot down
Now it's clear that I'm here, for a real reason
'Cause he got hit like I got hit, but he ain't fucking breathing

Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul
Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me

I just realized how crazy my music tastes are. I have on my MP3 player Maxwell, Heather Headley and John Legend (soul, R+B), Chris Cagle, Kenny Chesney and Keith Urban (country), Kid Rock, Seether and Jimi Hendrix (rock), DMX, Eminem and 50 Cent (rap, duh. lol) and not to mention Dispatch, Gavin DeGraw, Jason Mraz, Santana, and Frank Sinatra. Odd.

[	How You Doin'?	|	weird	]
[	music	|	I'm So Fly Remix - G Unit	]

Well, i understand now how people can be depressed around the holidays. It's my first year out of my house, and it felt so strange leaving after dinner. I just feel weird about it all...

Anyway, i don't think i have too much to say, i just have a new-found interest in live journal thanks to a certain someone i know. ( Sí, hablo acerca de usted. )

OK, im out...more posts to follow.

Later

<table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>What song...</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Fits your life as it is currently the most?:</td><td>Live, Laugh, Love- Clay Walker </td></tr><tr><td>Reminds you to be grateful for the little things?:</td><td>The Good Stuff- Kenny Chesney </td></tr><tr><td>Makes you wanna get up and dance?:</td><td>Yeah- Usher </td></tr><tr><td>Makes you reach for a box of kleenex?:</td><td>Walk a Little Straighter- Billy Currington </td></tr><tr><td>Reminds you of something you've lost?:</td><td>I Love You This Much- Jimmy Wayne </td></tr><tr><td>Is the one you secretly like but would NEVER admit?:</td><td>Dirty Pop- N'Sync </td></tr><tr><td>Reminds you of your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?:</td><td>The Dirty Glass- Dropkick Murphy's </td></tr><tr><td>Is the most depressing?:</td><td>Chirstmas Shoes- Newsong </td></tr><tr><td>Can put you in a horribly depressing mood?:</td><td>You Are- Jimmy Wayne </td></tr><tr><td>Can put you in a hyperily happy mood?:</td><td>What is Love...LOL </td></tr><tr><td>Causes your imagination to soar?:</td><td>Keg in the Closet- Kenny Chesney </td></tr><tr><td>Makes you want things you can never have?:</td><td>I Go Back- Kenny Chesney </td></tr><tr><td>Inspires you?:</td><td>Falling With Style- Jason Bloand </td></tr><tr><td>Makes you kinda horny?:</td><td>Turn Me On- Kevin Lyttle </td></tr><tr><td>Is your all-time favourite?:</td><td>Couldn't even guess... </td></tr><tr><td>Makes you calm and rather content?:</td><td>Stairway to Heaven- Led Zeppelin </td></tr><tr><td>Has personal meaning to you?:</td><td>Whiskey- Pat Green; Seventeen- Cross Canadian Ragweed </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=246" title="Sing a Song...">Sing a Song...</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a><br /><a href="http://www.emotiondump.com" title="Anonymous Emotions and Confessions"><b>EmotionDump</b></a> - 100% Anonymous Emotions and Confessions

Well you’re back on your feet
Knock the dust from your jeans
And your soul’s on its knees
Rolling dice with your dreams

You’ve got a watch in your pocket
Keeping track of the days
And you OD’ed on aspirin
But your headache remains.

Chorus
It’s gonna be alright in a matter of time
The dirt is gonna yield and the poem is gonna rhyme.
It’s gonna be alright
It might take a little while
Cause flying ain’t nothing
It’s just falling with style.

And when you walk through the valley
With the shadows to the west
You can pull out your bedroll
Lay down and get some rest
And you can pray for the sinners
The most and the least
And be awakened by the sun
Being born from the east.

Chorus
It’s gonna be alright in a matter of time
The dirt is gonna yield and the poem is gonna rhyme.
It’s gonna be alright
It might take a little while
Cause flying ain’t nothing
It’s just falling with style.

You’ve got rope burns on your hands from holding on way to tight.
But if you let go today, they’re gonna heal up alright
And your eyes are half closed from staring down the sun,
You got no time for singing. You’re always on the run.

Chorus
It’s gonna be alright in a matter of time
Cause the dirt is gonna yield
And the poem is gonna rhyme.

It’s gonna be alright
It might take a little while
Cause flying ain’t nothing
It’s just falling with style.

It’s gonna be alright
In a matter of time
Cause the dirt is gonna yield
And the poem is gonna rhyme

It’s gonna be alright
It might take a little while
Because flying ain’t nothing
It’s just falling with style

And no flying ain’t nothing
It’s just falling with style

Which Song...

Reminds you of an ex: "Back at One" -Brian McKnight
Rreminds you of an old friend: "I've got Friends in Low Places" - Garth Brooks
Makes you cry: "Christmas Shoes" -Newsong
Makes you laugh: "No Sex" -Chris Rock
Makes you want to dance: "Bouncin' Back" -Mystikal
You wish you wrote: "99 Problems" -Jay-Z
You want to get married to: "If I Were You" -Collin Raye
Makes you want to mosh/bang your head: "Bodies" -Drowning Pool
Used to hate but now love: "What The Hook Gon' Be?" -Murphy Lee
You like to wake up to: "Music" -Eric Sermon
You like to fall asleep to: "Only Hope" -Mandy Moore
You would like out of your parents record collection: "Killer Queen" -Queen

You love but you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: "Rich Young Dumb Nymphomaniac" -Jason Bowlan

Makes you think of the moon: "Dark Side of the Moon" -Pink Floyd
Makes you think of the sun: "When the Sun Goes Down" -Kenny Chesney and Uncle Kracker
Makes you think of home: "Song for Mama" -Boyz II Men
Makes you think of sex: "Why Don't We Get Drunk and Screw?" -Jimmy Buffet

Makes you think of being alone: "Silhouette" -Smile Empty Soul
Makes you angry: "Break Stuff" -Limp Bizkit

my c key is stuck, and i have to press it extra hard. :-( good couple of days, maybe ill update later with details...

i dont even know what to say, but the fact he called me bothers me. i dont know what you want.

A-Age: eighteen
B-Blood Type: O+
C-Candy you prefer: chocolate and peanut butter, or jelly beans
D-Dream that frequently returns: i dont dream...like, ever.
E-Easiest person to talk to: myself

F-Favorite songs at the moment: Meant to live- Switchfoot, This Way, Spaceship and Jesus Walks- Kanye West, Forsaken- Korn

G-Game you currently play: MK4, Diablo 2
H-Hometown: c-c-c-coventry
I-Instruments: the u-bangy. and kazoo.
J-Job you wanted to get once: president
K-Kind of things you collect: nothing, i guess. movie stubs
L-Longest Car ride ever: RI to maine?
M-Means of transportation you prefer: hydroplane 
N-Number of siblings: two sisters, step-sister, 9 or so half siblings i dont know
O-Oldest sibling: Me!
P-Phobia[s]: crashing....i guess.
Q-Quote you like: "I'd rather be hated for who i am rather than be loved for who im not." Kurt Cobain.
R-Reason to smile:im on my way to play basketball with valachi

S-Song you sang last: Mayberry- Rascal Flatts
T-Time you wake up: between 7 and 9 during the week, usually 10 weekends.
U-Unknown fact about me: um. i have 13 toes? just kidding, i dont know.. 
V-Vegetable you hate: broccoli.
W-Worst habit: the i sometimes dont act as mature as i should at work, and.
X-X-rays you've had: hundreds. my chest, so many times, head, arm, fingers, legs. 
Y-Yummy food: carne al lentjana? i dunno how to spell it but its good portuguese food. also, burgers, weiners, pizza, salad, pancakes, ok im done. lol
Z-Zodiac sign: Scorpio-wooha.

( never let you down )

so, my sister has a competition today which i was going to go to and be nice big brother damien, but im fricking sick. so now im cleaning and listening to music, trying to relieve some stress. yea...

You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal. "And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal." Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian). The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire. His sign is the eclipsed sun. As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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haha, yet another reason to substantiate my tattoo of a pheonix, coming sometime in april? wannajiggle aka Capri,</span></span> is going to try and design my eye of horus....:-D

um, no updates in a while, been so busy with work. i am really loving my job though. all of those aptitude tests you take, and you find a great job by dumb luck. one that actually fits your personality, and youre good at. and its a career. at 18. wooooha. and mike got to work with me for a few weeks, haha. i think im going to have him and some people over tomorrow, considering the rents are gone, and so are the sisters until monday. but im gonna go make some dinner.....maybe.....Pasta?

haha

ash just called, her and johnny are gonna come over after work....cool.